I believe.. You suck!

You know, I am amazed at how many ppl visit this fuckin place.. I mean cmon' it's me bitching about randomness bullshit that happens in my life. And sometimes along the line I add a Siwel story or two. I try an not add too many cause then wtf would I have to put in my book?

The most frequently asked question is "where do you come up with this shit?"

In reply, I dont really know how to answer that question.
The Siwel stories are unaltered truths. Real to life things which have happened in my life. There was nothing to "come up with".

Most of my blog's are things that happened to me in a days/weeks/months time. Sometimes however I throw some randomness thoughts into the mix tho..

I like to think of myself as a pretty simple person, however in reality I am rather complex. I dont get pissed off easily but I get irritated quick and simply.

I believe there is a god, not because I am a spineless fuck of a human who feels they need a sense of a higher power to put their trust into to get them through their shithole of a day, rather I believe because I think everyhting around me is too complex to of happened by chance.

I hate Religeon. I think it's a glorified way of being a cult who receives tax breaks. Religeon is proof that no matter how stupid of an idea you have, some moron out there will buy into it and give you money. That moron will then persuade more morons to do the same until one day you have a complete following "Religeon".

I have a hard time believing in Satan. Why? Bwecause if there is one why has he not made an attempt to contact me yet? I mean cmon'. If anyone has an imaginative enough mind to come up with the wildestly evil shit if need be it is me. - Ok, honestly.. Yea, I am sure he exists as well.

I dont believe in the typical "hell". Hell in my eyes is nonexistance. Death w/out hope of ressurection, that is hell. Imagine going to sleep and never waking up. That my friend is hell plain and simple. There is no place for you to go to that involves eternal torment because you did not choose to worship the correct god or beliefs. This is just a way to scare ppl to coming to church and giving them money.

I understand holidays and why they exist, I do however think the way they are portrayed is absurd. Letting children grow up thinking there is a magical fatass basterd who lives in the north poll who has midgets who make toys which ironically resemble the ones you can buy at toys-r-us which are then stuffed into his toy sack and delivered around the world all in one night as he magically appears in your house is FUCKING STUPID. Whether you are placing toys or taking toys I know one thing.. Santa Claus is guilty of Breaking and Entering.

Dont even get me started on the other holidays..
Would it be so hard to just be like look, this is Jesus' bday, death, ect., ect. this is why we have toys presents yada yada. ~ Oops, im sorry. Religeon isnt about truth's it's about bullshit and money.

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Let's see what else do I believe in..


I believe no sane person is suicidal. I think it is his/her surroundings or unchangeable events which bring a person to a point where they feel the only way out is death.

There has been many times I have felt the helplessness feeling as to my life but yuo dont see me jumping off of a building. Suicide is like your way of flipping God off and saying "fuck you, I quit". I dont know about you but I do not like losing. What doesnt kill me might make me temporarily depressed, but it does make me stronger and alot angrier. I dont agree with how the world works but I am part of it. Taking myself out of it is not going to help anyone..

I believe no person is "normal". Everyone is different and will think someone/something is weird. I am by far not normal.. I am extremely fucked up to be quite honest. But even I can look at things/ppl and think HOLY SHIT wtf is wrong here?

I believe I am done writing this..



Guess im trying to make up for neglecting my blog huh?
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